Happy 2017!

      Today is January 1, 2017.  I spent the last hour of 2016 in mass for Sunday. I am glad I did because that is the best way I could end a year and start this new year off.  Spending time worshipping God is the best way to spend time in general.  The thoughts of becoming a nun came up again during mass. I am going to have to pray to God about what this means and if He is calling me to serve Him.  I will get an answer from God.
       I hope everyone around the world will have peace and not fight one another. I hope hatred will be replaced by love. I hope selfishness will be replaced with giving.  I hope the homeless (humans and animals) find warm shelter, food, and clean water.  I hope those who lost loved ones will know the love of God and His comfort.  I hope all the lonely have love and friendship. I hope the hungry and thirsty get the sustenance they need. I hope those who are lost ( whether physically or spiritually) be found. I hope those who need help, receive it. I hope all those suffering illnesses or diseases, find comfort and treatments. I hope those who are in pain find comfort and peace.  Finally, I hope those who need healing, receive it.
         This year will have a lot of potential to be a better year.  I had a feeling that this year will be a breakthrough year for me.  I plan on continuing my relationship with God and get closer to Him. I plan continuing to work on my health and get answers.  I hope to feel better and get a part time job.  I hope to make new friends or get closer to the ones I have. I hope to be able to get out more. The list goes on. All I know is, I am getting ready for living a better life. God will direct me in way I should go. I need to trust Him.
         Happy New Year's Day 2017!  I hope good things come to you all.  Have a safe day full of love.

                                                             Kim

A rant.......

OK. I normally don't like to get political anymore but I am irritated.  So, I had seen a post by a woman in late teens/early twenties on the Build-A-Bear site on Facebook asking why they have a ton of Star Wars male character bears/outfits but only one Princess Leia costume.  They don't have a Princess Leia bear. (Just so you know, I shop for Star Wars plush on there.). Basically, she is saying Build-A-Bear is sexist because of that. This young thing doesn't know what true sexism is nor does she understand what sexism is.  This is the fault of feminists who cry foul for everything.  This young woman doesn't understand the time period which she is talking about because it is before her time. I told her she was way off base with her line of thinking.  I told her when the original series came out, Princess Leia wasn't playing a typical female role. She was strong.  Girls didn't have a lot of characters like that back in the day. We had Princess Leia and Wonder Woman. 
      This girl probably wasn't told she couldn't do anything her heart desired or said she couldn't do something because she is a girl. I can bet the farm on that one that she probably hasn't experienced that.  I remember one boy in my neighborhood when I was 4 years old telling me I couldn't carry a plastic army gun because I was a girl.  That made me want to prove to him and the world he was wrong and that I could do anything I wanted.  I want to thank that kid because he motivated me to be a go-getter, not to fold up in a ball and cry about it.
      I know I shouldn't let this misguided young woman get the best of me but I am tired of these girls crying sexism for this and that.  Women and girls today can be whatever they want barring any health issues. They can do a lot more things than women in the past could and don't just have to be barefoot and pregnant anymore. I think we need to educate these young ones on how far we've come as a gender and maybe they would be grateful for all the opportunities they now have. 
     I was a feminist when I was younger but I didn't hate men. I just wanted to be taken seriously. I remember watching "9 To 5" as a kid and was motivated to be taken seriously. That was all I wanted was an opportunity to do what I wanted and now times have allowed me to do that. I just have to get past my health issues. 
     I stopped being a feminist when I saw the direction they were heading.  Those women went from seeking equality in education, jobs, etc to men hating ball-busters.  That is not a good direction. To me, if the feminists want to fight for injustice, they should focus on countries with which women are treated as objects.  I think that would be a better direction than what they are heading.
     Does that mean there isn't sexism? No, it is still around but not like it was in the past. I don't want these feminists to ruin what us women now have. We should be happy with where we are and not hate men.  Men are mostly good people and women need men.  Men need women and women need men to survive. We may not need them to provide a lifestyle anymore but we still need them.

Is the second coming of Jesus near?

Hi all,
     I haven't watched the news for awhile but I decided to watch today.  I see what is going on around the world and all these celebrities and people in general dying left and right.  My thoughts have turned to the Book of Revelations.  God talked to John about a whole bunch of events will take place before Jesus comes back a second time, which leaves me pondering about His return soon.  I know the Bible states to get ready for Jesus's second coming and that only God the Father knows when Jesus is coming.
      I am not one of those people who freaks out about everything little thing or I am not a "Chicken Little." However, I am wondering if I should start to stock up on nonperishable food and water.  Should I make sure I am dressed in lounge wear when I sleep so I can be ready like the Bible says to be.  All these things are circling my mind as I watch the news.
       The reason why I am thinking about these things is because the Bible states that people will be divided, they fight with one another, they will persecute and kill Jesus's followers, etc. These things are happening more and more.  People are believing lies over facts.  You hear how people are intolerant with one another and embracing sinful behaviors more and more.  God has been forced out of schools, public property, etc.  I know these things have been going on for years but it seems like they have increased over the past few years.  The Bible says all these things will happen before Jesus comes again.
       I have been working on my relationship with God over the last couple of years. I have gotten more serious with my praying and trying to change my life/attitude etc.  However, ever since I had my surgery, I have been going to TV mass on EWTN every day except the past couple of days due to my painful exam yesterday and my fall today. I hope God isn't mad because I haven't done my prayers or haven't gone to Mass. I will try to do my prayers and go to Mass tomorrow if I am not in too much pain.  I went back to my prayer regiment.  Now, I don't know what occurred during my surgery but before I went into surgery, I went to Mass on Sundays only. I only did a few prayers.  Now, I had the notion to go mass every day, barring any health issues.  I didn't have a voice tell me or anything like that. I just turned on the TV at my parents' house one morning during my recovery and went to Mass. I have been going or try to go every day.  My point is I don't know why but God wanted me to go to Mass every day. He is in control so He wanted me to go to church.  He clearly is bringing me closer and I wonder if it is because Jesus is coming soon.  Sometimes, I ask Jesus to take me with Him when He comes back.  I wonder if that is the reason.  I am waiting for God to tell me.
       The other thing is I have never fit in anywhere.  I always felt out of place.  My parents raised me to be old-fashioned.  When I was preteen and teen, I wondered if I should become a nun.  Throughout my adult years, I wondered if I should become a nun. However, I never had a calling.  I just had thoughts of it.  I never had the urge to go into a religious order.  Those thoughts have surfaced again in past week or so.  With my unresolved health issues, I don't think I would be any help to a Covent or the community.  So, joining a religious order doesn't sound like a good idea.  I want to do God's will and live for the Holy Trinity.  I try every day to make God happy. That's all I want to do.  I fail every day in doing that but I do try. 
      All I know is I am waiting on God to give me direction as to where my life should go.  I am waiting for a sign or a whack to the back of my head by God to say hey over here or listen up.

                                                  Kim

Hi, Miss Graceful hurts herself,

Hi all,
     Well, yesterday I went for my 6 week appointment to check my surgical areas. After a very painful exam, the doctor determined that I am healing well but I still have some stitches in the inside that haven't "melted" away yet. She said that is pretty common. She, also, noticed I have granulated areas (meaning they are still raw). That would explain the old blood discharge I am having. I have to see her in two months for a proper exam. She couldn't do one yesterday because I was in so much pain but at least she got to see some of what she needed to see. If my stitches and granulated areas are not healed two months, she will have to cauterize those areas. :( Let us hope they heal by the next appointment.  That was yesterday.
     Today, as I was going to the garage.  In the garage, I was getting ready to pick my mom up from work, when I tripped and fell. I was lucky because if I hadn't grabbed hold of something, I would have hurt myself more than I am.  Anyways, while trying to stabilize myself during the fall, I twisted my right side/hip area and softly landing on my rump. I texted Nick to come get me. He came to me and had to help me into the house. I had to call my mom to tell her Nick would have to take me to the hospital because I thought I broke my hip. That is how bad the sprain is. Anyhow, I called my father to get him to pick her up. Then, Nick took me to the hospital. Turns out I sprained it badly as previously stated earlier. The x-ray showed I didn't have any broken bones. 😀. That was the good news. I was ordered back on bed rest for a few days, to take pain relievers, and use a cane.
      This has been a sad year. All these deaths and not just celebrities. RIP to all those who passed away this year. I pray that God comforts you all during these difficult moments. I feel bad for all the families especially Todd Fisher and Carrie's daughter. Not only are they burying Carrie, they now have to bury Debbie.  I read they are having a joint funeral, which is fitting because they both died in a 24 hour period from each other.  Then, you have all the other celebrities that passed away like Prince, George Michael, John Amos, Lemmy, Nancy Reagan, Alan Thicke, Ron Glass, Abe Vagoda, Patty Duke, etc.  There are so many that I would be here for awhile listing them.  I hope 2017 doesn't have as many deaths as 2016 has had.
      Well, hopefully the last two days of 2016 will be boring and uneventful for all.  Let us not have any more deaths for awhile, people stop hurting one another for awhile, and everyone is happy and healthy. Let 2016 end on a little better note by not having anything bad happen. I can't say this was a good year, but I can say it could have been worse. Hopefully, it won't get any worse. 

Christmas Eve 2016

Hi,
     Well, I am watching "Too Cute" on Animal Planet because I don't want to watch anything else. I am laying in bed. This Christmas Eve is not very eventful. The tree wasn't put up this year and I didn't decorate the porch due to the fact that the cats would destroy anything I would put up inside the house and because I am recovering.
       As I know God is with me, I am feeling very depressed and lonely right now. I know I should feel joyful but I am not. I think it started when I heard the sermon this morning at church.  The priest started talking about parents and children. Even though I don't want any kids, the way he was describing how parents know what their children need and their childrens' communications. I started to cry because even though I am okay with my hysterectomy, part of me is grieving what will never be. I didn't realize how much it hurts to deal with the door closing on that part of being a woman. I know that this too shall pass and I have accepted it but I guess I haven't fully accepted it.
       Then, I am alone upstairs watching TV. The cats, Jack and Starla, are with me but it is not helping my funk. I was very happy this morning before church and then it was all downhill from there. I am excited about Jesus's Birthday. I am just feeling down. I will snap out of it. It will pass but it sucks right now. This is not how I wanted to spend Christmas Eve. I know I will get back to a normal routine soon and it takes time but I am still bummed.  Even seeing cute baby animals on TV isn't snapping me out of it. I am just devastated inside.
        I have turned to God for help, by praying. I know He will help me but I think I will have to grieve until it is time for full acceptance. I read online that even though a woman is wanting a hysterectomy to help with the period issues, she might go through the blues about it. I think I am no exception to the rule. I truly don't want children. I like kids but I like it when they go home with their parents. So, that is why I had the surgery. I didn't expect to feel sad about it. I feel like less of woman. I know that isn't the truth.  I still have my "cycle" but I won't have a period. So, I am not truly menopausal but I won't have a period. It is confusing but not. Anyways, I will be fine.
       I hope that whoever reads this has a Merry Christmas. I hope you feel lots love and joy. I am sure this will pass by tomorrow and I will be happy about Christmas.

                                                           Kim